Sometimes I can’t talk. I’m an adult, I hold down a job, I’ve spoken in public at international conferences. Yet some days, I can’t even say “yes” to the offer of a cup of coffee, at home, from my partner.
It’s as if someone has put tape over my mouth. The fully formed sentences are there and ready to come out, but they just don’t happen. It feels like I’m willing something to happen by telekinesis, or trying to start a car that refuses to even turn over.
This is a lot like how I am with spoken language. Sometimes just feels like too much effort to actually get the words to come out.
And writing/reading have always felt less… mentally stressing?… for me than speaking and listening.
Yes. I can definitely relate to this feeling.
ALL MY FEELS> It’s like… HOW DO MAKE WORDS!? And sometimes I’m like bla bla bla and won’t shut up. Those are your two choices. Can’t be arsed to vocalize and can’t shut me up
Even more proof that we are, at times, the same person. Yes.
Because this is me, too.